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Words from Before It's Too Late by Goo Goo Dolls.
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Tuesday, December 11, 2007
its complicated! :(
I cant lie of my feelings and everything seems so pathetic lately. I feel so hurts at time unknowingly the real reason to it. I feel so NUMB at times & expressive the other times. Feelings do make a different to life when it take over you. You wont know what you are trying to do or you might just embarassed yourself by telling the truth.
Im too scared to make any decision for now. I fear that HISTORY might just repeat by itself w/o me realising it. Its too painful for me to bear with it again. Once is enough.
Oh boy! You make me lose control of myself. I feel so pathetic and stupid out of a sudden. I feel as though im in heaven enjoying the luxury of life but its just a THOUGHT! Its seems so complicated than i've ever thought.
I've never understood this feelings at first. But now it seems so clear to me but im too SCARED to go for it. Besides, im so sick & tired of making the move. I lose my guts whenever i saw one. How DUMB i can be? haiz...
Forget it then. Its the last week of school. Then there will be a pathetic 3 weeks of holidays with nothing much to be done. Exams will soon starts as the terms start next year. How fast can time flies? Question after question, unanswered & left hanging.
Projects after projects. Too many in mind. Too much to be done. Too little time left.
I dreamt of Syarul. What do that really means? Everything seem so sudden. Smile that ive created to cover up. After a long time that i took to forget what happens. Why must you keep reappearing in mind? Your looks, your smile.. YOUR EVERYTHING!
hais. I really loathe you so much. Must i insert the word HATE in my mind so that i wont be reminded that you been EXISTED in my life before. You are the caused but not fully blamed. I hate myself for what had happened and i despised myself for letting it happened again and again. Those scene kept haunting me.
The silence of me, dint mean im ok! You stole everything precious from me.
Will anyone care enough to stand by me to help me forget those bad memories from me?
Im holding on & will keep on holding on..
BUT
its so impossible that im able to be keep holding on.
I might breakdown any of these days.
Too emotional of me BUT i just cant take it anymore..
REGRET-ness filled in me.
too much to be said...
Im too scared to make any decision for now. I fear that HISTORY might just repeat by itself w/o me realising it. Its too painful for me to bear with it again. Once is enough.
Oh boy! You make me lose control of myself. I feel so pathetic and stupid out of a sudden. I feel as though im in heaven enjoying the luxury of life but its just a THOUGHT! Its seems so complicated than i've ever thought.
I've never understood this feelings at first. But now it seems so clear to me but im too SCARED to go for it. Besides, im so sick & tired of making the move. I lose my guts whenever i saw one. How DUMB i can be? haiz...
Forget it then. Its the last week of school. Then there will be a pathetic 3 weeks of holidays with nothing much to be done. Exams will soon starts as the terms start next year. How fast can time flies? Question after question, unanswered & left hanging.
Projects after projects. Too many in mind. Too much to be done. Too little time left.
I dreamt of Syarul. What do that really means? Everything seem so sudden. Smile that ive created to cover up. After a long time that i took to forget what happens. Why must you keep reappearing in mind? Your looks, your smile.. YOUR EVERYTHING!
hais. I really loathe you so much. Must i insert the word HATE in my mind so that i wont be reminded that you been EXISTED in my life before. You are the caused but not fully blamed. I hate myself for what had happened and i despised myself for letting it happened again and again. Those scene kept haunting me.
The silence of me, dint mean im ok! You stole everything precious from me.
Will anyone care enough to stand by me to help me forget those bad memories from me?
Im holding on & will keep on holding on..
BUT
its so impossible that im able to be keep holding on.
I might breakdown any of these days.
Too emotional of me BUT i just cant take it anymore..
REGRET-ness filled in me.
too much to be said...