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Wednesday, October 22, 2008

im depreesssedd

I do not know what am I feeling right now. Everybody avoiding & ignoring me. The tension at home is rising very fast & quickly. I'm getting sick & tired of all nagging that been poured to me everytime I reach home. They make me as if I'm transparent. Like a piece of translucent paper. It hurts yet Im keeping my silence. I dint know why are they being overprotective towards me. Im 19 for goodness sake! No more a 9 years old kid. Smile that meant to be sincerely put on was faked all along. Covering up my ass so as nobody see's it in school or wherever I go. I cant stand these treatment by own flesh & blood. They doesn't seem to care much. I seems to be a DOLL to them.

Faking my smile is the best solution I can think of right now. Cant come out with a solution yet. Wants to talk things through with them is just nerve breaking. All I know is that I'm fucking DEPRESSED right now. Nothing can described my feelings right now. A mixture of different emotions. Getting sensitive over small things nowadays. Dont even know why I feel that way. I'm just not myself lately. This feeling really makes me feel super DOWN!!

Cant I fall in love? Is it wrong? Why is mum keep nagging? She getting on my nerve lately. Dad also. I know I've been home late but I dont do something stupid. hais. Cant I taste the feeling of love. The thirst of care & love from someone I love. The jiggly butterflies in the stomach whenever I think of him. Those kisses planted on me. Those warmth hugs that makes me feel better whenever Im sad or scared. I miss him everyday eventhough I've been meeting him nearly everyday this week.

& yet I still miss Muhammad alots.

I do not know why, whenever I look at him I feel relieved, stress-free. My smile will automatically switch on like as per normal. I love him like there is no tomorrow. He is a gem in my heart even if it hurts at times. I just loves him so much, so much that I can fight with mum just to get the facts right about him. He is a nice guy mum. You must get to know him & learned about himself & you know him. I hate it whenever you keep saying that he's not the right one. Only Allah will shows the way to the right path.

Still,

I cant deny

I love him so much

I miss him everyday

I cant leave w/o him in a day

Just, just a lil understanding from mum.

I LOVE MUHAMMAD ABDUL KARIM SO MUCH.

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